18 looking for a friend or something more

so ive done this before but havent followed up well after it due to quite mwdiocre responses.

im 18, studying in uni, like watching shows/movies and listening to music. i like cool facts and pretty things. i also appreciate tragic stuff

what made me make this post is quite a weird situation. i have a friend(more than a friend, like we've done everything a couple does) and i have been so very much attached to him that it really hurts my insides when i see him losing his feelings for me. i cannot change his mind. we still do stuff, just a lot lesser and with a lot of pain for me.

so i want to get my mind off of him. he is going to leave soon (maybe 2-3months) and i need someone who can keep me sane.

im fine with doing anything, i would just like someone who could actually care for me without ulterior motives.

Because im so tired of caring for people unconditionally snd its physically and mentally affecting me.

So if anyone is up for it, id really appreciate it. I need a good friend or more than that. im also fine with nsfw stuff. just make me feel cared for and ill be okay