34 . Trying this again

So last time I did this, my bf was getting a bit suspicious so I had to abandon ship for a bit. I am looking for a bit of a slow start, maybe friends. It's been a crazy 2 years and I'd like to just slow down and see what happens. I'm in a long term relationship that has really went no where over the years.

I guess I stay for the kids and it's more convenient then working out the logistics of leaving and all that. We get along okay, even still have an average amount of sex (who wants average though right?) but it ends there. We are just 2 people co existing in a house full of kids.

There is no chemistry, no affection and bringing it up has never changed anything. I'm lonely and bored. Missing conversation and connection. Not really looking to sext but I won't say I'd never be open to it, that's just not what I'm looking for right now.