34 My girlfriend passed away 2 months ago and I don’t know how to move on.

I recently lost my girlfriend to a bad mix of her prescribed meds \(not overdose or street drugs\). I spent a month waiting and hoping she hadn’t mixed alcohol \(which they said was negative\). Either way it didn’t matter now anyways. I’m a big guy and I’ve never been with such a small cute girl before.

It blew my mind that she really loved me. She always help to show me how an amazing I was and I feel like I’ll never find that kind of true selfless love like that again. She made me feel loved, smart, and for a big guy she even made me feel sexy. I miss her beautiful eyes.

Her warm hugs and touch of her lips on mine. I miss her so much. I know I’ll eventually have to move on but I honestly feel like I don’t want to. I don’t know. Maybe I just needed to say all this because I can’t even talk to my best friends about this.

No one can understand what I’m going through no do I wish to put it on them.