35M Cringefail looking for a long term friend, someone to genuinely connect with, game with and chat about life together :))

Hey there everyone!!

I'm not sure how to start describing myself, I'm not great with words but I'll try my best.

(I'm so sorry for the extremely long post ahead!)

I apologize if I don't reply to your message, but as I explain later, I don't reply to short/low effort messages and I also don't reply to people that don't have at least a few interests in common with me or aren't looking for a real connection and are just looking to pass the time or have a light chat.

I think some of my most defining characteristics are that I'm very shy, awkward, "weird" and "different" or at the very least I feel weird, different and often misunderstood. I would also say I'm extremely cringy and I love edgy stuff, not in a bad way, I don't think, but more like, I love Shadow The Hedgehog and Tomura Shigaraki kinda way lol

I'm unfortunately not very smart, I'd say I'm down right stupid lol

I am very ignorant about many things in life, I'd say I'm somewhat innocent and naive. I still don't understand my purpose in life and I haven't found a reason to be alive either.

I sometimes say things that offend people or I say things that are wrong. Sometimes I don't completely understand what I do wrong but I don't do it on purpose and I try to improve to the best of my abilities.

I don't go out often at all. Whenever I do go out it's only to buy groceries and such but I don't enjoy it, I much rather be at home, in my room most specifically, which is my favorite place in the world.

I don't have any IRL friends but I do have a handful of online friends although I'm not particularly close to any of them.

I enjoy many things like sculpting for instance! I do digital sculpting for fun but I'm honestly awful at it.

I like to watch anime! my favorites change from time to time but I really like Bleach, Dragon Ball, Demon Slayer, Ancient Magus Bride (I really love this show!) and I LOVE My Hero Academia, among many others!

I like professional wrestling but I just recently started watching a few years ago and I only watch WWE for now.

I like to collect action figures.

I really like masks!

I love movies and I love to talk about them and analyze them.

I like all kinds of music, I don't really have any artists that I like in particular other than David Bowie and Violent Vira but I'm always happy and open to new suggestions!