37 F from the UK with ADHD and EUPD

Good morning, trying this again as I still have failed to find 'my people'

I feel it useful to list the ADHD and EUPD as it does impact my ability to make and keep friendships. I get distracted quickly so may need a nudge sometimes - I am not intentionally being ignorant but maybe the conversation is not interesting enough I dunno. (I'm aware that makes me self-absorbed but it is what it is 🤷‍♀️)

My EUPD is suppressed most of the time until I interact with people which doesn't happen very often. But I'm lonely, yearning for social interaction. I can get quite obsessive over people and then shut them down just as quickly. Hence why I find myself alone and isolated now. As I age I'm trying to do better but opportunities are far and few now - I'm broken and beyond repair.

I will talk to men or women but a lot of the time I just get men saying I'm pretty and a good man in my life is what I need. Trust me, I don't. I've never had problems attracting men. I'm a full time mum and romance is not on my agenda - it has rarely lived up to expectations or met my needs anyway.

If you have read this far without getting bored or thinking I'm (too) pathetic then maybe you should comment, who knows? You might make a friend.