46 Married, 46, home alone and feeling invisible tonight

Got home a little while ago to a quiet house and way too much time alone with my thoughts. Married, 46, exhausted from feeling overlooked and craving something I can’t even fully explain anymore.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to have someone actually see me not just look at me, but understand the loneliness behind the smile and the flirting behind the silence.

Tonight my mind is wandering in dangerous directions. Maybe I just miss connection. Maybe I miss being wanted. Maybe I miss feeling like someone would stay up talking to me because they couldn’t stop thinking about me.

If you know what neglect feels like, maybe you understand why attention can feel intoxicating.