Attractive, ignored , and lonely dad looking for real and in-person connection

Hello,

I've had a few conversations on here in the past but am looking for the one. I think the hardest thing is scheduling and location, but I'm holding out hope that someone is out there in a similar situation.

I'm conventionally handsome, a large number of tattoos, 6'2", 200 pounds, dark hair, usually rocking a bit of scruff or a clean shaven face. I've been told my eyes are uniquely hazel and my dentist says I have a uniquely shaped uvula -- weird fact about me that probably no one else in my life has ever noticed. I'd say right now I have an average build but I'm working on being in the gym more and building out more muscle definition and overall cardio/strength fitness.

I have a career, four kids, pets, a house, etc. and am the sole breadwinner at home so I have a lot riding on my shoulders and feel like I constantly have to be on my A game or everything will fall apart. Even so, I feel like I'm just generally not liked, seen, or appreciatedIfor what I do. I'm never enough. I'm constantly fighting uphill to get things that I like and I want. And I'm just exhausted from the struggle. I know that this is probably not the right thing to do and not the moral thing to do, but here I am. I do have a professional therapist that I see regularly. And I promise that I will not use you as my therapist. I also understand that we both come into this with our own baggage and I'm happy to talk and listen to any of that.

I'd love to be able to just cut loose with someone, release some of the tension, and just exist in something that can be mutually beneficial, fun, and exciting. Where it can be judgement free and we can just k ow each other without the masks or defenses we have to have up every day in reality.

My brain is chronically engaged and I have a hard time not taking in information. I will be the all-star teammate at the next bar trivia night. Or I can bore you to death with all the random trivia I know about almost any subjeOntario.

I love playing and listening to music, I love movies that make you think, I love books, and I've been reading the Three Body Problem series recently and absolutely in love with it. I'm always looking for new book and music suggestions and would love to know what makes your brain tick. I'm a nerd at heart and have a special place in my heart for some video games, but am deeply committed to my work and the people around me in life.