Ever enough? 37 Toronto

New to adultery not attention.....but since I am opening this door....is it ever enough?

Is my spouse the problem or me???

Will I always need more and multiples....or is marriage the issue.

Worried I am about to spiral into an endless cycle of addiction not ever being enough..

Anyhow about me. 37....attractive, tall, blonde, love to laugh but like respeOntario, quick wit. I love a lack of routine so my hobbies are always changing but: golf, crafts, 2 stepping, travel, wine, cocktails, working out, being active, never sittng down, adventures everyday, organic fun convos.

I am wondering if I am the problem......or my neglectful hubby.