help me figure out what to do with the rest of my life

Hi😂 This is considerably a more serious post compared to my post history...but nonetheless, here I am. Currently a soon to be 26 year old who is lost in this world I did not consent to being brought into lmao. I'm feeling particularly angry at myself for not having my shit together at the old age of 25 🤠. I fluctuate between temporary passion projects and doing only what gives me a sense of peace, i.e. spending time with friends and family, or NSFW stuff😊.

I feel quite lost in this world, and I can't quite seem to find my place. I'm not sure what to do. I'm doing therapy and taking the required medication given my diagnosis...But I think talking to people helps me process my thoughts and goaIs. I aIso feel guilty for having this privilage and still struggling.

I currently feel unbearably vulnerable and sensitive, which just means that I could fall apart at the first sign of empathy from someone. I've just reached a point caring so much that my brain has turned off to probably save me from falling apart. If you're interested in brainstorming or if you relate to this we can vent to each other 💕

P.S. I'm an audiophile so I'd prefer to talk through voice calls or voice notes😊 if that's not your thing then I'm not for you.

Playlist: I've been listening to Disturbed and Metallica

xoxoxoxo