Looking for a serious online boyfriend who plays guitar and sings

I know, the guitarist and singer ask is very specific and it eliminates many of you amazing guys right off the bat (I’m sincerely sorry!). But the heart wants what it wants. Few things make me weak in the knees like a voice I love listening to sing while self-accompanied by a guitar. So yes, this is a little bit like an audition.

As for the rest, the TL;DR is I’m looking for a special person for me to love and to love me back - reciprocated and consistent.

I’m affectionate, have a huge heart, love intensely, feel deeply, and into real connection - emotional, mental, intellectual, physical, a little spiritual, and when the time is right, sexual too. I like late-night talks, being greeted good morning/night, sharing our days, deep conversations, being mutually supportive, discovering each other through playlists, and someone who treats being together (even from a distance) like it’s real.

While I live like a single woman in every sense but name because I have autonomy and more than average free time, I know we’re in a clandestine relationship and the usual rules and expectations apply. Within reason, I’d still like you to have sufficient time to dedicate to building a relationship, you’re not looking for a work wife, and you don’t have a spouse who breathes down your neck.

I’ve been hanging out in this neck of the woods for a very long while and have found success. But most recently I’d been in an online relationship for over a year that taught me a lot. I gave affection, attention, time, care, playlists and more, but oftentimes it felt one-sided. He sings beautifully and has a lovely mind and soul, but he’s not very expressive about how he feels, and that gap started to hurt. This experience has made me realise I want someone who’s willing to show up in small, steady ways that grow with time.