Sorry for the moment of self pity, but life kinda sucks very bad right now and I could use a friend, a hug, or even a pet. (Anywhere)

Hi! January has just been a sucky month for me... I’m really trying to find a new job that sucks less and pays more, but that’s been a struggle. My bf, now ex dumped me because I have emotions? I gave him a lot, my love, my money, my support. The guy couldn’t even afford to take me out, which is fine... I paid for all our dates. He had 2 roommates that he gave more attention to which I totally get, but like every time I was upset it’s like he had a problem that I was something other than happy, but with his roommates he would drop everything to make sure they were okay... I just supported him through everything when the issues didn’t seem that big and when I was upset and having a rough time he kicked me while I was already on the ground. And yeah everyone was telling me that I could do better, but no I defended him, because I made a commitment. Yeah there were plenty of red flags but when I have my mind set on something, I can’t let it go. Also I lied and told everyone I was the one who dumped him and that I came to my senses to seem less dumb, but no he dumped me because I explained to him that I was just really feeling emotional that day and I needed some attention and he said that I was being toxic and he needs to leave me for his mental health? And he couldn’t even talk to me... so yeah I kinda snapped after that... because he blocked me like a coward and I just wanted him to break up with me like a man either by talking to me on the phone or coming over to my place and doing it in person! Give me closure, give me answers... there’s no way he dumped me just for being emotional, there has to be more and all I want is the truth! Sigh, but anyways like a week after that, I tested positive for covid. Now I spend my days lying in bed in pain. I wore my mask, I washed my hands, wiped everything down as soon as I clocked in for work... but nope I still got it while my stupid co workers walk around saying they’re not feeling well while not wearing a mask and as soon as I get back I’m cussing them out for their selfish and reckless behavior!

I’m usually a pretty chill person but I just had a rough time lately and it feels like everything is just falling apart, the only good thing is that I’m actually getting a break, working 6 nights a week makes you feel like you don’t have any time for yourself.