18 looking for older drinking, smoking and conversation buddy.

Hi, I'm not an expert at these things, but I'm a mostly shut-in student who doesn't click at all with her peers.

I yearn for simple evenings sitting with someone I can be myself with despite all my strange or unsettling interests and tendencies, possibly teaching me how to smoke properly but if not then just drinking is okay.

If you're not nearby, we can still talk but keep in mind I'm mostly looking for something in person, and I know it's terribly pathetic of me to look on here but I'm not socially adequate enough to find people irl for now.

I don't know if I should tell anything else about myself but I'll just have some warnings then. I'm as gentle, patient and sweet as I can be unsettling, mature and artistic. Once I get slightly comfortable I tend to talk a lot and it can be about unusual topics. If you're looking for sexual interaction, it can eventually come to that if we like each other but know that it's not my first intent. But it can happen. I speak multiple languages, I'm tall, skinny and not conventionally attractive.

Text me if you'd like to talk. I'm less cold than I seem like this, I just am not good at tone and stuff. Neurodivergence I think. See you.