36 Are people really looking for love? I’m not

I mean no disrespect to the people putting out prompts here, but when I read them I read about wanting real connections and laughing at the same thing etc etc. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in chemistry, but if I was looking for love I would be considering a divorce.

I have a great husband. He’s a good man, a caring father, a hard working employee and a good partner. All of that can be true and I can still be missing something. I feel guilty about it. He hasn’t done anything to deserve me looking around. But I have an itch I can’t scratch. I can’t stop thinking about cheating. I can’t stop craving something primal, something lustful.

I am a very in control person. I have a job where you could call me a boss. I run the show at my house, not because I run over my husband but because he prefer me to make decisions. It’s who I am. But it gets exhTorontog. I want someone to tell me what to do for a change. Is that too much to ask? I guess we’ll see.