If you're sleeping are you dreaming, if you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?

Hello ! Salutations! Greetings! Happy whatever!

This is not a traditional post. As much as I would have loved to scrolled through the endless messages serenaded with floppy dick pics and "hey bb hmu urgr8y ass," I implore you to move on. do not waste your time, as I am looking for one specific man. We have crossed paths, collided, melted, and, sadly, have lost one another, but in complicated circumstances too deep to dwell into on a mere sub this site as .

Why here? I know he lurks here. We met on here. He sucked me in. We fell in love. Hard. (That was not intentional but now that I think about it....)

If you're reading this, please. Please. Please. Let us try again. Every second we shared made me stronger as a person. Every time I heard your voice, my smile grew bigger. You made me believe in myself.

I miss video chatting all night, not being able to speak because my parents were asleep in the next room. We stared at each other's faces and that was enough.
It was never enough.

I miss calling you during my break at work and you making me laugh after dealing with assholes pissed me off. You would interrupt whatever I was geeking out about and you would tell me how beautiful I looked today. But you can't see me so how would you know, I would always insist, and you, without missing a beat, would tell me you just knew. I was always beautiful, you didn't need to see to know that.

I miss you telling me about your batman, korra, geek fanfiction. I miss you getting caught up in feelings.

I miss how you respected me. How you loved me. How you cared about me. How you made me smile. How you were just....such a GOOD person. I've never found someone as beautiful as you are. You are a diamond in the rough.

And I am so sorry shit happened. I'm sorry you had to make that choice for me. I'm sorry this happened at the wrong time. And yet.....if I had to do it all again, even with all this heart bleeding from my heart every single day, it would be all worth it.

Because you are the one.

I can say that without catching my breath.

I want to kiss you. I want to see you in front of me, as you came in and pretended to be a customer so you could flirt with me and ask me out in front of my unsuspected coworkers.

I want to go to Sephora with you.

I want to cuddle with you. Watch Sherlock with you while I screamed at the TV.