insecure virgin looking for a sweetheart to hang out with

this is a huge step for me to put this out into the internet anonymously so im gonna be as straightforward as possible i guess? the last time i had a boyfriend i was 17 and he was super addicted to porn and literally wouldnt have sex with me because im not as interesting as porn women i guess. it lowkey permanently damaged my sense of self and i stopped dating after we broke up and now im freshly 21 in college and ive never been intimate with a guy before and it makes me feel so.. embarrassed and inexperienced i guess :( im shy at first but pretty outgoing with my friends and im also pretty emotional. i fall in love with anyone who i feel compatible with but when somebody hurts me it cuts deep

im really lonely. i just started a new degree and although i have friends at school its hard seeing people younger than me dating so easily when i have such a hard time showing myself to people. i think i need a way to get past this ex-boyfriend trauma somehow and i just desperately want to feel desired!! im really skinny and 5'8, brown hair/eyes and i have glasses. i put a lot of effort into my fashion because i think it will make me feel more confident which works sometimes but also sometimes not? i wish i could be like those cool dyed hair Toronto girls but i think im too nerdy looking to truly pull off the effortless rolled out of bed outfit look :p

requirements for you:

kind, sweet, patient with me

maybe also inexperienced so i dont feel terrified of making a mistake?? this is not a hard rule

under 26, either in school or you have a job

can meet up with me in Toronto or Toronto, queens is too far from me

please dont get mad if i ghost and delete this account, i want to say upfront that if i get scared that is something that MAY happen. i dont want a longterm relationship out of this but we can see each other a few times like a normal date?? cuddling???? if i feel safe around you i want to experiment a bit but no hard kinks/bdsm stuff. ugh this is so scary ok im gonna post it now