looking for a feeling of connection? A cosy little safe space of a vibe? Someone to talk to, low pressure. 30+ only & single please, thank you.

I realised the other day all my social interactions at the moment are, a bit guarded. About making some sort of impression or having to stay within specific guardrails. Mostly work conversations. That feels a little bit like a fate worse than death sometimes.

I missed that spark of connection with someone, where chats are just fun & easy and you can, I dunno, make a safe space with someone? to be slow and cosy and chill out together. Talking about dumb stuff that happened, finding a way to be understood and to understand? With someone who can keep the conversation flowing - not where they put the ball in their pocket, as the quote goes.

I'm trying the 52 weeks of baking challenge. In one of the first few weeks I tried a new meringue type cake and I dropped it onto the kitchen table and it broke in half. So I just scooped it all up into a tupperware and gave it to my parents with a custard sauce anyway. They enjoyed it, and at work we have a "highs & lows" in our weekly meeting, which is only slightly cringe. and i told that story as a lowlight, but without the crucial detail that I'd dropped the cake onto the table, and not the floor. So, in my first few weeks of a new job, I told everyone I dropped a cake and scooped it all up and gave it to my mum & dad instead. I remember realising that and thinking it was so funny like, I'm cake drop girl who hates her parents and gives them floor food. what an impression to make. but, i didn't really have anyone to share that with, you know. like in the way that makes you laugh so hard you can't really breathe as you tell the story. and I realised how distant I'd become, and how all of a sudden I didn't have that person or people it felt like I was going up against the world with. I'm pretty awkward by default and I always have been, but having people who can accept you despite/because of the awkwardness helps take the sting out of it a little, rather than kind of just dwelling on it.