LF for a gamer/nerdy person who I can connect with, play video games with and hopefully form a meaningful relationship with.

I was going to use a throwaway but theres a 48h restriction so fuck it lol. basically looking for friendship and maybe eventually something more.

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I got a lot of catfish bs on another post which is understandable though pretty patronizing, but still here's proof and if we click I actually really enjoy camming/talking all night, that sort of thing.

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I'm 24 and have mild ASPD (not edgy tumblr self diagnosis bullshit) and I only mention it because I'm looking for a genuine connection with someone, not some half assed thing where I have to put on a persona. I'm selfish, self serving, and I don't see any of the above as a fault or illness or whatever, I wholly embrace who I am, though, when I connect with someone, I become selfless and empathetic with them even though that's not at all who I am with other people, if that makes sense.

**I'm asexual,** bicurious, and if I actually connect with someone I'm super lovey dovey both physically and emotionally but it's hard to find people who are just fucked up enough that I can be myself and not have it be unattractive. I'm looking for someone who has some of that (cringe that I'm saying this), "darkness", that I have so I don't have to hide who I am or censor my thoughts who I can maybe relate to in terms of that--but also is a bit clingy(yes I like that), sensitive and loving(towards me).

I get attached to anything that makes me feel alive and that's what I'm looking for here. I don't leave the house often, I'm really nocturnal and I don't have any deep friendships. big yikes, right lol. anyways, it makes me feel like I'm missing something that makes everyone else seem so happy, or sad or anything, whereas I've just always stuck at neutral -besides a handful of times in my life where I've felt things really deeply be it due to sleep deprivation or when I took pain pills for a root canal, or the two relationships I had where I think I truly loved the other person unconditionally. So at least I know it's possible lol.